I do want it
Posted: 08 Mar 2021 01:33
I want to be a part of this, I truly do. I just dont know how, and I'm not in a position to put in the amount of work and time it'll take. I'm still in school, and currently have more responsibilities than I can keep up with. I want to know, I want to go on this journey. I am so tired whenever I have time to go on here I can barely get more than a few minutes of searching before falling asleep or losing interest.
It's sad. When I first started here not too long ago, I felt excited. Even 20 minutes on here, and I'd be thinking about so many different things. I'd realise huge things i'd never known before, and I was so happy. I could feel my mind expanding. I want it so bad, I want that feeling again. But I have no motivation, as I have no fucking clue what to do or where to keep going. I'm not in a place to be searching for something that I don't even know what I'm searching for.
My worst fear is that I'll never come back. When I have time I'll browse through here, but i'm going to stop pressuring myself to come here to find answers. I have more questions than I can keep up with now. I need to find these answers before I start with more questions. I hope one day I can give this my full attention, because I know It'll be worth it.
Thanks for reading,
-Tyler
It's sad. When I first started here not too long ago, I felt excited. Even 20 minutes on here, and I'd be thinking about so many different things. I'd realise huge things i'd never known before, and I was so happy. I could feel my mind expanding. I want it so bad, I want that feeling again. But I have no motivation, as I have no fucking clue what to do or where to keep going. I'm not in a place to be searching for something that I don't even know what I'm searching for.
My worst fear is that I'll never come back. When I have time I'll browse through here, but i'm going to stop pressuring myself to come here to find answers. I have more questions than I can keep up with now. I need to find these answers before I start with more questions. I hope one day I can give this my full attention, because I know It'll be worth it.
Thanks for reading,
-Tyler
