Hello Everyone
Posted: 23 Nov 2014 20:23
Hello everyone,
When I first found the 973-eht-namah-973 site I was immediately drawn to it, I found this place shortly after.
Before I continue I want to explain a few things about myself, I don't go on forums or facebook or any social gathering really. I don't keep friends and I don't let people know me, the real me, not the face I put on for others. I try my best to function well here but sometimes I get so frustrated with these ideas and concepts that seem so natural to everyone and completely foreign to me. I don't read entire books or devote myself to any particular research, I prefer to find answers within myself and the visions I see around me. I'm actually nervous about talking about this, I've really never done this before and I might never come back to this site again after awhile and if I don't I'm sorry. If that means anything. I want to be wrong and find something here. I saw that this is a place where people can speak to kindred spirits and I've read through some of the post already. That's what inspired me to speak here.
The world I believe in is a world of predetermined outcomes, where "fate" has already dictated all of our actions. Essentially we are going to do whatever we want to do because that's what we are going to do. Everyone always tells me at this point that they can choose whether or not to pick up an object or not, but "fate" already knew. "Fate" knew all of the causes that made up your decision, all of your wants, fears, hangups, everything that has happened to you, everything that has affected your mind, everything that has conditioned you to make that decision. "fate" is "god", for only a "god" can know that information.
From this belief, i find that everyone and everything and anything is connected, an interconnected web of cause and effect for the physical realm. It sounds self-explanatory, but at this time I was also dabbling in Aura "magic", meditating as I usually do on the connections around me and my own "spirit". Afterwards I found that I can grasp my Aura at anytime, anywhere. I started to see Aura connections everywhere as well. The feelings that we feel affect others, not just from body language, but directly from our resonating Aura. Stronger emotions could produce a stronger effect. When I talked to people about this phenomena they scoffed or told me that it was black magic or whatever nonsense. Either way, delving further into myself and my meditations on connections, I wanted to use those Aura connections and I wanted to test my theories. I tried to reach out with my Aura and feel. At first I was doubtful of myself, but the more I let my mind slip away the more I could feel. I knew what to say to anyone, for better or for worse. I can dissolve someone's self-esteem or boost it up. I can convince people of anything that I believe. I learned that doubt was the killer of "magic". Perhaps that's what Jesus' quote about the mountain meant. The more my material my thoughts became, the more weak my will became, I stayed away from religion, I stayed away from philosophers, I stayed away from ignorance. Anyone and everyone really. I searched myself and my instinct. At this point I could no longer believe in right and wrong, or laws, human constructs. I followed my heart, which is good. In being true to myself, I learned Truth. Energy flows through all things, even our Aura is energy. Everything has energy, everything is moving and changing. I feel that we are missing something to that secret, an enlightenment of some kind. Then we could be like "god" altering the fabric of our existence. The only way to do this is to lose our humanity and our minds, for to be a god is to be above human.
I'm actually physically hurting from this now, and the people around me here are bringing me back to the physical. Maybe I'll try again in a bit. I just wanted to say, I believe in the thoughts here, numerology is very powerful. I know that a equation of "fate" could be made, perhaps from numerology to accurately predict anything and everything. Forgive me if I was ignorant of anything here or of anyone here, I have no idea what any of this numerology actually is or how to do it. I just know that it's important to my future. So if my post seems off topic for the board, please forgive me.
When I first found the 973-eht-namah-973 site I was immediately drawn to it, I found this place shortly after.
Before I continue I want to explain a few things about myself, I don't go on forums or facebook or any social gathering really. I don't keep friends and I don't let people know me, the real me, not the face I put on for others. I try my best to function well here but sometimes I get so frustrated with these ideas and concepts that seem so natural to everyone and completely foreign to me. I don't read entire books or devote myself to any particular research, I prefer to find answers within myself and the visions I see around me. I'm actually nervous about talking about this, I've really never done this before and I might never come back to this site again after awhile and if I don't I'm sorry. If that means anything. I want to be wrong and find something here. I saw that this is a place where people can speak to kindred spirits and I've read through some of the post already. That's what inspired me to speak here.
The world I believe in is a world of predetermined outcomes, where "fate" has already dictated all of our actions. Essentially we are going to do whatever we want to do because that's what we are going to do. Everyone always tells me at this point that they can choose whether or not to pick up an object or not, but "fate" already knew. "Fate" knew all of the causes that made up your decision, all of your wants, fears, hangups, everything that has happened to you, everything that has affected your mind, everything that has conditioned you to make that decision. "fate" is "god", for only a "god" can know that information.
From this belief, i find that everyone and everything and anything is connected, an interconnected web of cause and effect for the physical realm. It sounds self-explanatory, but at this time I was also dabbling in Aura "magic", meditating as I usually do on the connections around me and my own "spirit". Afterwards I found that I can grasp my Aura at anytime, anywhere. I started to see Aura connections everywhere as well. The feelings that we feel affect others, not just from body language, but directly from our resonating Aura. Stronger emotions could produce a stronger effect. When I talked to people about this phenomena they scoffed or told me that it was black magic or whatever nonsense. Either way, delving further into myself and my meditations on connections, I wanted to use those Aura connections and I wanted to test my theories. I tried to reach out with my Aura and feel. At first I was doubtful of myself, but the more I let my mind slip away the more I could feel. I knew what to say to anyone, for better or for worse. I can dissolve someone's self-esteem or boost it up. I can convince people of anything that I believe. I learned that doubt was the killer of "magic". Perhaps that's what Jesus' quote about the mountain meant. The more my material my thoughts became, the more weak my will became, I stayed away from religion, I stayed away from philosophers, I stayed away from ignorance. Anyone and everyone really. I searched myself and my instinct. At this point I could no longer believe in right and wrong, or laws, human constructs. I followed my heart, which is good. In being true to myself, I learned Truth. Energy flows through all things, even our Aura is energy. Everything has energy, everything is moving and changing. I feel that we are missing something to that secret, an enlightenment of some kind. Then we could be like "god" altering the fabric of our existence. The only way to do this is to lose our humanity and our minds, for to be a god is to be above human.
I'm actually physically hurting from this now, and the people around me here are bringing me back to the physical. Maybe I'll try again in a bit. I just wanted to say, I believe in the thoughts here, numerology is very powerful. I know that a equation of "fate" could be made, perhaps from numerology to accurately predict anything and everything. Forgive me if I was ignorant of anything here or of anyone here, I have no idea what any of this numerology actually is or how to do it. I just know that it's important to my future. So if my post seems off topic for the board, please forgive me.